I feel strongly that I have spent the majority of my 30 years chasing something that I am not sure exists.  I have done and tried everything it seems to try and fill a void for contentment in my life.  I woke up recently to find that after quite some time now in a fog of pretense, I still have not found it.  I have traveled through religion, self-discovery, education, relationships, friendships, lots of reading, lots of self-improvement books and activities.  They s...