Me…I'm rusted and weathered Barely holding together I'm covered with skin that peels and it just won't heal Man, today has been a rough day.  Well, actually it has been a rough couple of years, no wait, actually it has been a rough 30 years!  I don't know how to stop it but I feel a downward swirl of depression coming on.  I can sense it in every way but I feel like I cannot stop it from coming.  My therapist says I need to allow myself to "feel" negat...

  I feel strongly that I have spent the majority of my 30 years chasing something that I am not sure exists.  I have done and tried everything it seems to try and fill a void for contentment in my life.  I woke up recently to find that after quite some time now in a fog of pretense, I still have not found it.  I have traveled through religion, self-discovery, education, relationships, friendships, lots of reading, lots of self-improvement books and activities.  They s...